Religion and wondering

So lately I've been thinking about when I was little and my parents always made my sister and I go to church every Sunday morning. I actually really hated having to get up and get dressed and be to church way early especially since I already had to get up early to go to school. But here lately I have been feeling like, for lack of better words that something may be missing in my life and that I should start going back to church again. I say this because now this would be my decision to go and mine alone and I would not feel pressured to go to church and therefore I might not benefit as much. Hmmmm just something that I am thinking about.

Love,
Britney

Mundane Monday Madness!

Sooooo its Monday and Im really not feeling it at all today. Im feeling very overwhelmed with work and I just need a break. For some reason the new year can not come fast enough as it brings more vacation days!!! I just want to get to a place where I feel relaxed and focused. Im worrying about graduating school after these two classes and I feel like its taking forever!!!!!!

The Holidays

I have realized something about myself that I LOVE. I really love volunteering and helping people and maybe this is my real passion and I will do something in that field, but Im not really sure yet. I have a few things lined up for Christmas like going to the soup kitchen, and adopting a family through a shelter and a few other things. I can’t really explain the way that giving makes me feel but I know it’s a great thing to do.

Britney!

Christmas Gifts

Hi Everyone,

The holidays are coming around and its gift giving time. Here are some great White Elephant gift ideas, or just cool Christmas gift ideas.

• Bottle of wine with glasses
• Board games
• Collection of toys from the local dollar store
• Picture frames
• Movies i.e The Hangover, Sex and the City
• Fund child hood games i.e Nerf Gun
• Mr. Potato Head
• Wine opener
• Movie night pack includes (popcorn, flavored popcorn shakers, candy, can of soda)
• Lotto tickets
• Rechargeable battery holder with batteries

Also you can check out this website link below for wacky fun gift ideas:
Fun gift ideas

What does your name mean?

You know I've often wodnered what my name meant. I mean I know that my mother named me after the chipmonk "britney" from Alvin and the Chipmunks, but I never really knew what my name meant. Check out this site to see what your name means.

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What does your name mean?

WRITING!

So I didn’t update everyone on this, but I will be writing a bi-weekly article for an online new paper. I am pretty pumped right now!

Annoyed

So nowa a days things have the tendency to annoy me very easily. Again as I’ve said before I know what the issue is and I am working on fixing it but I don’t know how that’s coming along. I feel very irritated and easily upset by every day things that normally would not bother me as much. Im sick of the mundane and the norm and I need something else to fill my days, some thing more notable and more important. I am searching for my fill.

Please shut up

A part of being an adult is making the right decisions and letting go. It’s sometimes harder said the done, but you do what's necessary to maintain you sanity. I wonder… since when does brushing people off because you are not adult enough to handle your issues become the norm? The funny thing about it is that when you call someone out on something like that they get extremely defensive and make it about you. I would suggest that if you find it imperative to blame everyone for things that are going on in your life that you do an extensive Google search for a therapist. There are obviously some deep rooted issues that you have that you NEED to discuss with someone who is paid to listen to you whine and be annoying. It is pure ignorance to put others in the midst of your foolishness only to ruin relationships and friendships. I need everyone to man up and take responsibility for what they do and SHUT UP!

Mental Health Day

If you are currently employed, then you will understand the meaning of a mental health day. This is not to be confused with a vacation day, but some thing more along the lines of "me" time. I mean we spend a significant amount of time with the people that we work with and just like anyone else you would need a break from it all. So I recently took my day and I am happy to say that I did nothing at all expect relax and do things that I needed to do for my self. It was nice for a change to automatically wake up before 7 look at the clock and go right back to sleep just to finally get up @10am. These days should be encouraged at the work place and should be given to workers just like sick time. It has been proven that mental health days increase productivity in employees... soooooo why not?

Why so ANGRY?

You know I have to be honest with myself and admit that I have something like and anger issue. I've noticed this in myself increasingly so within the past year and half or so since making a few career changes. I mean little things that normally would not bother me at all are now almost pushing me over the edge. I have the ability to admit this because it’s something that I have to deal with and change. I think that on some level I am not as happy as I used to be. I know where this stems from and I'm trying to change that situation but it’s always easier said than done. Every day I am more and more affected by things that are so insignificant that after the fact I think about it and think what the hell is wrong with me! I don't for a second blame anyone for my harsh feelings it just is what it is. At some point I thought …what do I really have to be so unhappy about? And after pondering this, I realize that that I am and have been very fortunate in my life and that for a lack of words "need to man up" and just get over it. This is just the beginning of my life and I don’t want to continue on with these feelings. So I have decided to change… look for a new Britney coming to a place near you!

Me time

Today feels disappointing and as dark as the skies appear right now. I want to feel like I am doing something valuable with my life and feel literallylike I am affecting some one in a positive manner. I know that this sounds rather cliché but I do feel that there is a void in my life some where and to be honest I guess that I am looking for the right thing to fill it. I want to be motivated and inspired by a greater power, by a forceful being. I want to be moved to tears because things make me overwhelmingly happy. I want unrealistic things, things that I see in the movies and on television. I am venturing onto something new that I have never done before, and have never been exposed to before and I am feeling some kind of way. I think that I feel kind of nervous and very excited all at the same time and I don’t know how it will all work out in the end, but I tihnk this may be something big for me. I maybe feel that I need these things because I haven’t really had the healthiest of years this year and I just want to make sure that my life is worthy of mentioning when Im gone from this earth.

Honestly

I have never been the best at saying exactly how I feel about anything at all fro one reason or another. I mean don’t get me wrong Im not on that Miss Independent trip nor have am I severely damaged from past relationships. It’s just the way that I am period. I am so able to say what I feel and think when I am doing what I do best… writing. I do understand that at some point this is something to grow out of but I can admit my flaws and I am trying to get a handle on them. I would love to be able to take the words from paper and muster up enough courage to actually speak them. There is so much power in the spoken word that I always want to get it right and I put too much thought into it that it doesn’t always from that way that I think about it in my head. I also have a funny sense of humor that can at times be viewed as sarcastic and off putting, or down right not caring but this is not nor has it ever been the case. I just like simple things and simple people and good wine! So I take everything in stride and treat people as if they would do the same to me. Don’t take it personal its just that I am flawed and so are you.

No Pushing

So you know when you continue to give people chances, I mean chances to change or to do the right thing and some how they never succeed? Well I try to treat everyone fairly based upon my past interactions with them but this always seems to get me in a bind. I now understand why some people become so bitter and unapproachable and it’s because at some point in their lives someone kept trying to take advantage of them and they broke. Being emotionally broken is way too much for any one to have to deal with. So instead of making a public service announcement that you are sick and tired of being screwed you just go on the defensive. To add insult to injury people think that they can fix things by saying the two most annoying words ever known to man “Im sorry” well guess what yes you are sorry and NO I don’t care. So keep it moving. The funny thing about this whole situation is that people want you to forgive them and act like it never happened yet they do nothing to aid the forgiving process. At some point you have to learn that enough is enough, man up and keep it moving because only you loose in the end!   

Wedding Bliss for a friend!

So today I found out that a friend of mine is engaged! I almost think that I am way more excited than she is because we have known each other for years and have told tales of the bad relationships that we each have had. I think that I am so happy because I truly know that she is a wonderful beautiful person and she truly deserves honest, faithful, pure love. I feel that we are all entitled to love but we have to be very careful as to whom we share our love. I did think that this would happen a while from now as she is so independent and has so many things to fill her life, but when you find love and the opportunity to experience love on another level approaches you, you don’t not turn it away. In these times where no one knows what will happen I would say that it is best to go through the struggles with the person that you love the most. I have always generally had the pleasure of meeting good people and she is most definitely one of those people. I support their love and their union and I could not be HAPPIER for the two of them... CONGRATS!

Death and Love

Over the last few years I have lost friends, and family members for one reason or another, and I just realized that there are so many similarities between death and love. When you are in love, truly in love and you loose that person, a part of you literally dies and you feel like your whole world in crashing down a round you. Spending every day with him/ her and listening to the sound of their voice and their hearing their laughter forces you to feel love for them and no longer lust. You see lust is just the beginning stages and once you are both well acquainted with that you begin to move on to the next stage of fond feelings and softer emotions. You become attached and every day you look forward to seeing them, to being with them, just in their presence. Time moves on and you fall in love and you then begin to feel like you cant live with out them, you take their feelings into consideration, you hang on to their words as if you needed them to live. Then things all of a sudden things change, it’s like going through puberty one day you wake up and everything is different. A good friend of mine is experiencing something similar to this and her whole mood is different. She isn’t the bubbly, fun out going person that I know her to be because her heart has been broken and right now they only person that can fix it is the person that broke it. When people have been embedded into your life in some shape or form pass on whether it be in death or in love there is a significant sense of loss that can not be replaced, but only mended from time to time. I myself have struggled and am struggling with loss and I hope that at some point I can move on and be the woman that I know that I am. Knowing that I can’t touch my grandmother anymore, I mean physically touch her makes me feel as if I have truly lost something. One day I will wake up and over night I will have gone through all of the cycles of grieving and I will be able to mend my heart.

Best places if you want GREAT customer service!

So recently I had a bad experience when I went into one of my favorite stores... MARSHALLS and I was thinking about it for a few days. Long story short it was so bad that I wrote the manager. However I feel as though the places that I have received great customer service from deserve a moment... so here they are in no specific order:

·        Nordstrom (Towson )

·        Café Hon (Hampden)

·        Melvin’s Tire in Auto (

Belair Road

)

·        T-Mobile.

·        Woodberry Kitchen (Clipper Park area)

·        State Farm

·        Burberry (Towson Town Mall)

·        Tiffany’s (Towson Town Mall)

·        Shoe Repair (Security Square Mall)

Me personally I still like that special touch. When people still genuinely care, when people go out of their way to make you feel welcome. When people simply smile at you and look you in the eyes and say have a great day. These moments are so few and far between that I myself am often shocked when I receive the kind of service that I should anyway!


Britney

Im Back!

Hi everyone,


Im sorry I haven't been writing as much, I was in a car accident and I was down for a few weeks, but that is neither here nor there. IM BACK! The book is coming along very well, I am just trying to decide if I want to add more to the book or not. I am now shooting for Christmas time to have everything done and I have had a few set backs, but Im moving along pretty well. I was feeling down for a bit, but there is no point in being sad and sitting around doing nothing. I will update more a little later on today.


Britney

Coppin State University is the WORST!

So today I attended the Coppin State University Graduating Senior Seminar only to find out that I missed the deadline to have all of my information submitted so that I can walk across the stage to receive my long awaited degree. The deadline was September 5th and they held the seminar of September 25th which makes NO sense to me at all. I have waited so long for this moment only to have it snatched away from me. Well let me tell you what... I WILL walk across that stage even if I have to go the president’s office every single day. You try to have faith in HBCU's but they always let you down no matter what! I am sick and tired of this and one I leave I will NEVER go back and I advise you to do the same. So here begins my long journey to get them to do the right thing and let me walk...

Love Brintey

Best Products for Black Hair

Hi ladies,

Here is a list of the best hair care products that I have found that are fairly inexpensive:

• Moisturizer- Neutrogena Triple Moisture Silk Touch Leave-In Cream (about $7.00 local super market)
• Really dry scalp- Jamaican Black Castor Oil (about $6 on Amazon)
• Sulfate free shampoo- L’Oreal Sulfate free shampoo and conditioner line about ($6 local super market)
• Leave in conditioner-Cantu Shea Butter Leave in Repair Crème (about $5 Wal-Mart)
• Natural Oil for ends- 100% pure unrefined coconut oil (about$7 local natural items store)
• Deep conditioner- Procclaim cholesterol (about $4 Sally’s Beauty Supply)
• Protein treatment: Aphogee Keratin 2 Minute Reconstructor

All of these products can be used at home, and you can get great results if you use them per the directions... Taking care of your hair is very important. Happy Growing!

Britney

Looking Up Up Up!

Hi All

Well the first day of school was the 30th and I was already feeling defeated by my Statistics course. I do understand that this is college, however I mean the first day and you are already giving out test and home assignments. I sat in class staring at this book with nothing but long paragraphs with crazy diagrams and decided I was done before I even gave myself a chance. This is unacceptable and I vow to t least try before I decide that I cannot do it. I allowed my mind to trick me into believing that this course was so above me and I checked out. I am now however realizing that this is something that I really can do and I will succeed and I will not accept anything less form myself other than greatness.



Britney

Working

Good Morning,
Everyday I am working on the book hoping to get further along so that I can finally see the finished product. I don’t want to rush myself and put out something that I am not proud of. Today I am feeling a little down and I think that if I put all of that negative energy into my book today I will be very happy with the outcome.

Britney

Giving Back

You know, I’m sitting here at my desk thinking about all of the things that I have to do this week, this month and then it hit me. I feel like I am not doing enough to help other people. I mean I do work with the girls for Girls Rock!! and their volunteer activities, but I still feel like there is so much more that I could be doing with my time to make someone else’s day brighter. So Instead of waiting until the typical count down to New Years where everyone makes resolutions to change, to loose weight, to donate their time and money... I am going to start now. When I die I want to be more than just a "regular" person. I want to be remembered as someone who touched lives, and inspired others to be better than anything that they ever could have imagined. To me that is what makes life so much more than "regular". So here it goes, these are the things that I vow to start, change, or become better at




• Two times a month I will donate to a different charity

• Have a more positive attitude

• Do more with Girls Rock!!!

• Push harder than ever to be a better me i.e. eat better, get more rest, and take my vitamins!

These things aren’t really that big, or life altering but it is where I can start to do my part.



Britney

Thank You

Hi All!
I just wanted to take a minute to say thank you to the ones I love, and to the ones that support me. I love you all!

Britney

Just a thought

From time to time I always think about what I am meant to be in life. What is my puropse here on earth while I still have time to make a difference in someone else's life. I dont know if I am meant to do anything life alterning, or discover anything ground breaking but I do know that I am here for a reason I just dont know what it is yet. I guess when the time comes for me to discover the reason I hope that I will be ready to accept it with open arms. I can say that while I am seeking, I want to be happy and be with people that I love and that love me. I want to travel and see things out side of my town and touch and feel new things. Keeping an open heart and and a clear mind is where I strive to be only to be disapointed sometimes. I am however ok with that because it keeps me grounded and doesnt allow me to get beyond myself or to put myself above anyone else.

Are you truly happy?

You know, I have had the pleasure of meeting a lot of people throughout my life and some of those relationships have been very beneficial and others not so much. I have reached a point in my life where I have like the rest of the world, other things going on. It always seems that when you try to be positive and motivate and inspire others all they EVER bring to the table is negativity; you know those “friends” that I am talking about. When you are thrilled about something and have great news they have to down play it by telling you how horrible their day was. Yea, that “friend” the one that can’t ever seem to stop being selfish long enough to realize that everything is NOT I repeat NOT about you. To be honest no one really cares to tell you the truth. Well I personally am over the typical, melodramatic, annoying friendships that make you avoid their phone calls and wish that they would just leave you alone. There are so many books on how to have good relationships with the opposite sex, someone should write a handbook on how to be a good friend and if it were me it would go a little something like this:



• No one wants to always hear that you had a bad day… no one cares

• No one wants to listen to how horrible your life is…. Others have it worse

• Stop being selfish and using the entire time to talk about your issues… no one cares

• Stop complaining especially if you continue to put yourself in the SAME situation every single time

• Last but not least stop talking long enough to HEAR what the other person is saying

Well my rant is over its beautiful outside… and I’m actually having a GREAT DAY! Take a page from my book and get over it

Take care of your real hair!!!

Good Morning,

Here is a great hair care website for those of us ladies that have natural hair (no relaxers) and for ladies that do relax! It helps you with buliding a regimen that works for your hair type, mainitng length and healthly hair. The site offers blogs, tips, photos, 10 top user rated products and lots more. Check it out!
Hairlista.com/

Best Places to eat in Baltimore!!!

I know that I love a good meal, here are some of the best place to eat in Baltimore!
• Woodberry Kitchen

• XS Café

• Lemongrass

• Brick Oven Pizza (Fells Point)

• Broadway dinner (Open 24hrs, and they were on Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives)

Just thinking

Good Morning All,



Im feeling pretty inspired today to do more on my book and I hope that I can get some work started on it. I am also making some book marks to hand out once I am finished. If you need some good ideas for flyers and such check out Nextdayflyers.com they are really good. On a side note I went to Nordstrom last night to return a bag and got the best customer service that I have ever gotten in my entire life!



Britney

Newness!

Hi everyone!




This is my first blog ever and I am really excited! Today I am working on editing my poetry book and reviewing to make sure that it looks good. This book thing has proven to be a lot of work, but to be honest with you I really do love it a lot!